burnt out as a single mum trying to make comics at the same time

I started this comic because I just needed to start somewhere, and found the joy of telling a story page by page to be thrilling. It inspired something new in me, I felt a newfound understanding of the true power of comics, and I understood where I belonged. Things I had never really let blossom before. 

But I am a solo mother, and it is truly tough balancing being a single mum and artist. I am finding lately I just need to sleep instead of buring the midnight oil drawing. Destroying myself for a comic will make for dry and bad work. It won't turn out well if I am distressed and exhausted, as I have been lately.

It is bitterly hard switching gears from being a mother to being a highly focused creative when I know I only have an hour and a half of free time. I am not just making excuses. I wanted LMBOW to fill my cup and provide creative outlet for me, but lately I am disheartened with my art and writing, nothing I do comes out right. And I feel like the universe is telling me to take a damn break.

I had a spiritual moment that set off all of this. Back when I drew the Dawn chapter, everything came out wonderfully and the story and art just seemed to flow out of my brain as if magically. I compare everything I've done since then to this moment I had creating the Dawn chapter. I chalk it up to spiritual ferver. But I haven't been able to get it back.

When I get free time, I just collapse behind my laptop and play music. I barely find the energy to lift a pencil. 

It's just the way my life is right now. I feel beaten down. I can barely keep up with the memberships I've paid for for various picture book and illustration groups, they are all blazing ahead without me, and I can't attend any of them!

LMBOW is my long term passion project. 

But I need to find some other mini project to reinvigorate myself and breathe life into these old bones. Maybe it can be attached to LMBOWs world, but I need something small to take a break from the main plotline I've been slogging along drawing.