I wanna be an influencer

 Help me.

 My issue started in late 2022. I was struggling with climax in an unusual way I hadn't faced before. I would be about to cum and then hit some sort of mysterious blockage - keeping me from it.

It was life shattering and I couldn't talk about it.

I presumed the medication I was taking for bipolar had made me sick.

I presumed it was some sickness from the earth, microplastics, in my brain, keeping me from cumming.

What I didn't talk about was my prolongued mania being good to me. I never accepted that god was in control of it, and god took away. 

I still was capable of becoming a mother, whatever sexual issue I had, I was left to conemplate other truths in my body. I had a healthy baby girl. My eggs were fine.

It was god giving and taking away. I have a baby now.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Seven_Years_in_Tibet_(1997_film)

can we not change the world?

How is the church good? Fosters local community. Everyone is welcome. Learn something new. Think deeply.

How can the church improve? There's something on my mind, but I can't think of it. The most convoluted imagination game begins with birth.

I will.

https://mangadex.org/title/6576ac4c-0251-4978-ace8-70c675cb3b86/fuan-no-tane

I know what the sin in genesis is. What the pangs in childbird art.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Gleaners_and_I

A future where noone hurts

 Who looks away, has to look again. I love Ninajirachi. PLEASE RESHARE

https://drive.google.com/file/d/1Qb0CsALobHbA6DSBnbyg6EQfK_qCF2KI/view?usp=sharing  

 THIS https://chuffed.org/project/161617-abdo

The unifier. Wanna know what LMBOW grey symbolises?

albino has taken it the entire time

 https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Albinism they deserve time in the sun too.

I've synthesised with them.

when you're yukari but you're waiting for everyone else to get the joke

 

There's more where that came from. Male gaze is me. Someone has to do this. Someone has to be jesus.

But moms need to be recgonised. Celibate tho....why trigger. Never kick out your kids. The trauma of cardinal LMBOW is expelling it from the body.

I knew it started when I loved my mom, and I didn't want her to go to atheism. 

BUT.

Garden of eden was wrong...?שָׁמַיִם

This goes.

God has things I don't have.

Until twitter wonders 'what's Vela doing'. Until you break though.

The Dawn Closes

Multy-headed thing? That's been me though.

Jk it's actually you I will hunt down.

Until you go vegan, we will not be free.

https://readberserk.com/chapter/berserk-chapter-384/

Does it not say 'I LOVE YOU'

 password to my neopets is pooPing_69. I will say mean stuff about art until you break until you kneel.

Izzy is my favorite character.

Shapeshifter ixi is this. https://www.neocolours.me.uk/viewpet.php?colour=all&species=poogle&pose=happy+male

PLAY NEOPETS GUYS.

We are all baby.

I lost my neofriends. Add me.

I remember you, Trippinhun.

I wanted to be a white Poogle.

I know you're not a dumbass fucking BREEDER. I know you deserve kids. Bite me now. You're not alone. Dad doesn't know everything.

I'm not a bad driver

 You are. Getting made fun of because dad is impatient. Do you even donate. https://www.gofundme.com/u/vela-noble You give it away for free. https://touhoudb.com/Al/2557

You won't beleive in Immunisations but you'll believe in your phone.

You're not broken.

It's the best album visuals in touhou

https://borderlessjournal.com/2025/10/14/feeding-carrots-to-gentle-herbivores/

nonverbal

When I say Cathar it means 'we are cool'.

When I say jewish, I mean...we're looking at our lives through heaven's eyes. It doesn't mean 'plagues ya'.

The Prince of Egypt played on loop on my smartTv in front of my baby is......awesome. 

The plagues itself is 'awesome'.

When I say 'do touhou' I mean be the Prince of Egypt on steroids. It means, I love you.

When I say 'Berserk' I mean 'I love this so much, I don't want it to ever be anything else. I want it to stay forever.'

But it is CasRyu that I forgot. Suicidal murderers were babies once. There is only sex and love, those words don't do enough. There is no evil though. 

I know I love everyone, which is all of those things.

It's like having Griffith, Guts, Pinkiepie and Remilia Scarlet and Caster and Ryunosuke all at your dining room table, playing touhou. It's like having all the characters from all those serise seated at my dining room table. Words escape me.

That is what motherhood feels like. That's what my mom's love for me is. Eternal.

The screens aren't bad. They are dreams, which are real and should be enjoyed.

Playing Jewish Touhou however, is projecting what you think they should be thinking about onto them.

You are Shpongled like all the rest of the time.

It is like Susumu Hirasawa and like 27 clown in a field on Kangaroo Island with speakers everywhere and hotubs everywhere and it is sexy. Arts changed. Dream has changed. But it's not enough.

She is different. she is Touhou.....meaning 'if you practice it enough then....maybe.' 

She is the way girls talked, back before I played touhou.

It's inherently better being like this. It is an improvement. 

Only when searcherFiller crosses the entire world, will I be sated. SearcherFiller is AI. 

You don't just die on Stage 1 and feel bad about it. You have to try.

my mom made me want to become a mom. She died of brain cancer in 2020.

I had a moment when she was dying, where I said 'I know there's a place in the stars for you'. My dad tried to shush me. The world is safe. Let your kids play outside, inside, wherever. Let them have screens. Let them all play touhou and know they are loved.

There is nothing on the internet that can hurt you. All is full of love.

This is a fairytale for kids. 

It's about Berserk, and Touhou Project and CasRyu and My Little Pony. It's all of them.

But I can tell that you're all unchanged. I carry within me a darkness I pray you never know.

Oh yeah, Full Metal Alchemist? There is not only Again by YUI. It's psychosis.

I wish psychosis upon you. I love you. Even you Adelaide, although you keep shunning me.

It works fine.

If you don't feel this, you need to start to have more curiosity.

My attraction is VALID. I am not turned on by you. There is a secret wisdom you need to get, so I dunno if you have it.

You are stuck in LMBOW.

Been stooping so long, but stooping to pick up baby toys, is not stooping.

Don't waste your life. People all need to read Berserk in Japanese like I have to get here.

Too good to be true? 

You get to win too.

I know.

You are a starperson.

I don't have my dad bugging me. I escaped the loosh farm. Ask me how.

 I worked on myself first? Yes. I just like masturbating more than being with people that place their sexual expectations on top of me the whole time. I decline 'sex' if it means being misunderstood, because kink and fetish is more true than the gender roles you shove onto people.

Is not Guts sexual? 

He's Cascasexual.

Thanks for asking it. 

I'm not denying 'divination'.

I'm supporting it.

I'm just another faceless avatar on the internet? NO.

Carl Jung only knew what he knew. Logos according to Jung is masculine, is a preacher and a spiritual guide. He is. Because there is no denying you're masculine.....get over it. (bug man is sexy)

https://www.twitch.tv/videos/2882660361